A Memory
12.11.04 (7:30 pm) [edit]
I just wanted to stay with you.
For time to freeze us into that moment as a perfect picture.
... that moment that I wanted to keep.
Carried out into the cool clean air of December,
Blanketed by a winter grey that shelters us,
And your the only sunshine I need.
Everything seems so beautiful,,, or is it the moment?
Unraveling before me so quickly and preciously,
I told myself to remember,,,
To always remember.
Significance.
The feeling of being a child, and you were taught something knew,,, to understand it.
I want to keep it and everything you share with me.
All of you,,, and stay here.
Trapped in Heaven, yet trapped is an incorrect term, for I am not trapped by it, I cling to it for dear life.
Not it to me.
I am protected, sheltered,,, preserved.
I just want to stay here with you.
Lost in forever, I begin to chisel away in my brain.
Etching,,, Catalouging every single detail of you and this moment.
The air, the smell, colors around me, your touch, your kiss, your voice, absorbing it all in so that I will never lose this memory.
This memory which has so suddenly become such a vital part of my existence.
American Treasure
12.05.04 (8:20 pm) [edit]
This weekend was a great weekend.
Jonathan and I went to see American Treasure.. *Me,,, Huge Nicholas Cage Fan*
The movie was awesome... let's see... I can't pick a favorite part.. I guess when he stole the Declaration... I was screaming knowing that Eaon.. or however you spell it... was right there. I was on pins and needles...
It was great! And Being with Jonathan was the best feeling that I had in so long. I really don't get to see him like I used to because of our schedules, but it's really great when I do. I miss him so much some times.
He was so cute sitting there in the movie theatre. Every time, no matter how many times we go, I look at him, and I remember the first time we went to the movies together. We saw Butterfly Effect... And he was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen, sitting there beside me. When he looked at me, I knew that was where I wanted to be... and no matter how many movies we see together,,, I still do the same thing... and feel the same way when I look at him. I love him so much.
What made the night even better was that the tickets were a gift from my X husbands girlfriend (she's really great). I don't really know her, but what I do know of her tells me that she's a wonderful person... I always wonder how he wound up with someone as great as her :? ????? hehehe.
Anyhoooooo,,,
Tomorrow my kids come home and I will be so glad. By the time the weekend is over I am missing them so bad I can't stand it.
Noah is here with me right now, watching The Cat In The Hat... but it never seems the same when the other two are gone to their Dad's. I know they need and want to see him. I wonder how hard it is sometimes for him to go two weeks without seeing them? I don't think I could handle it, it's hard enough on me to go the weekend. It's got to be hard to go that long.
Christmas will be here soon so if I don't get to post again, Merry Christmas.
And Gate,,, I hope all is well with you, and that you and your kids have a great Holiday, if I don't get to speak to you before then.