Message From a Friend
10.17.04 (8:42 pm) [edit]
A message from a friend that I would like to pass on...
As life goes in circles, time runs away, we have the abilty to slow the spiral, but it does not go away. The issues of time, conspire to cheat us of life, the issues of life, conspire to cheat us of time, it is a vicious cycle, one with no end. It is life as we know it, it is life as we live it, there is no choice. It is life as it happens, we have no control. Accept the joys, accept the love. Let go of the hate, let go of the hurt, let go of the turmoil and try to ride it out. km4106/10/17/04
km4106 (12/5/2004 3:24:10 PM): My life is a spiral descent into the depths of hell, will it ever stop? Will I ever slow the spin? Sometimes I wonder, sometimes I seem to slow things down to where I can get control only to realize that all that has happened is that I have adjusted to the speed at which I am turning. Its comical to realize that in order to live life we must accept that we have no control and then it seems as if life will allow us to participate in a meaningful way that we may at least partially chart our own destiny. km4106 12/06/04
The Moon and Me (Dream)
10.09.04 (2:05 pm) [edit]The Moon and Me?
I'm not really sure what the dream meant, but I believe that all dreams mean something. It's impossible for me to believe that dreams are just simply subconcious babblings in our sleep.
But anywayz... onto the dream.
I'm in this place, or I should describe it more like a space, because there didn't appear to be any walls nor a top or bottom, but it did feel contained. I was suspended in darkness, illuminated by moonlight and before me hung the huge beautiful moon, just within my reach.
It was maybe a few feet larger in length then me. I reached out and touched it, and began to spin it around exploring it's surface, enchanted with it's moonlight.
Journeying to the left, I floated, turning the moon as if it were a huge globe you find in a library, but I also floated opposite it's direction. Suddenly I reallized that the further I went the younger I was getting, but I was already around 13 before I reallized it. I freaked out and began to hurridly go in the opposite direction, pushing my hands upon it's surface faster and faster. Before I reallized it I was very old, maybe 80 or more, and I felt it in my bones and my body very intensely. I panicked and slowly started to spin the moon again, going back steadily so I wouldn't pass over my age. When I reached the age I was supposed to be, I took my hands off of the moon and floated away, gazing into it... Then all of a sudden I was outside somewhere standing up. Jonathan came up to me and hugged me and said he was glad to see me, and the dream ended.
Life
10.09.04 (1:49 pm) [edit]Life Part I
Bent pieces to a backwards puzzle
That's impossible to solve.
The earth spins monotonously,
As we struggle to evolve.
Spinning wheel of spinning wheels
Ticking time away,
Everyday begins a start,
A start of a decay.
The beginning for some and also an end,
Depending on the card you chose.
Barely get your foot inside,
Before the door is closed.
Life Part II
The whisper of an echo,
I heard around the bend,
Calling me, "Come and Dance,
Before the music ends.
Learn to Love, and Love to Learn,
Try to understand,
Take heart, take word, take heed,
Take a walk a hand in hand.
Feel the wind before it ends,
Hear the laughter of a child.
Give a little, leave a lot,
Find beauty in a smile."