New Look
05.31.04 (1:08 pm) [edit]I don't know why I decided to do this.. It doesn't really match my site, but I've been stricken with this Matt Hughes piece and I wanted to use it... so here it is after a few hours fighting with tblog.
Sex and Love
05.26.04 (6:16 pm) [edit]I used to be very adimate that love and sex were completely two different things..
But now I don't think so...
I was so sure that they were entirely two different subjects that I know it caused problems in my past relationships now that I think of it and see it in a different perspective.
But I also know why my idea of what love and sex mean to each other has changed.
It's because when you are truly in love... sex is an expression of that love... but when you aren't,,, it's just sex... so my theory is... now that I truly love the person I am with.. I don't see it as the same thing that I used to.. it's more to me now..
Now,,, I see that sex and love are very much the same thing.. it's just that people put little importance on either one..
Love,,, people throw that word around like it means nothing...
Sex,,, people throw the act around like it means nothing...
But it's different for everyone I guess... Love can be a beautiful thing that you search long and hard for.. or it can be that butterfly feeling that you get when that guy looks at you from across the room wantingly.. Sex can be a beautiful thing that two people share and experience in a journey of growing and understanding one another in the concepts of love.. or it can be an expression of how much your attracted to that guy who's looking at you from across the room wantingly... so it's really in you... and the person your with...
If you both feel the same about the two then it's a good assumption that things will go smoothly.. but if you place different importance on either of the two then there can be conflicts.
I'm glad I found something that puts them both together in a very significant importance.
I'm glad that I have something true.
song
05.26.04 (2:28 pm) [edit]a couple of songs to fit my current mood:
My old man's backhand used to land
Hard on the side of my head
I just learned to stay out of his way
I've been in street fights, blue lights, long nights
With the world sittin' on my chest
It just showed me how much I can take
Hard times, bad luck
Sometimes It sucked
That's alright
I'm okay
It ain't nothin' but another day
But only God knows where I'd be
If you ever stop loving me
The bank man, the bossman, the law man
All tryin' to get their hands on me
And I ain't even done a damn thing wrong
I've been way-laid, freight trained, short changed
Five-fingered, and battled men
And all I've got to say is "bring it on"
Hard rains, rough roads, how my life goes
That's alright
I'm okay
It ain't nothin' but another day
But only God knows where I'd be
If you ever stop loving me
I need you
Gotta have you
In my life, by my side
Every day I'm alive
Every night that I'm breathin'
I'm needin' you
That's alright
I'm okay
It ain't nothin' but another day
But only God knows where I'd be
If you ever stop loving me
Ain't nothin' but another day
But only God knows where I'd be
If you ever stop loving me
If you ever stop loving me
~Montgomery Gentry
Mile marker 215
The gas guage leaning on the edge of E
I’ll be danged if the rain ain’t pouring down
There's something smoking underneath the hood
It’s a bangin’ and a clangin’ and it can’t be good
And its another 50 miles to the nearest town
Everything I own is the back in a hefty bag
I’m outta cigarettes and I’m down to my last drag
I’d sure hate to break down here
There’s nothing up ahead or in the rear view mirror
Out in the middle of nowhere, knowin
I’m in trouble if these wheels stop rollin’
So God help me keep me moving somehow
Don’t let me start wishing I was with him now
I made it this far without crying a single tear
I’d sure hate to break down here
Under fifty thousand miles ago
Before the bad blood and busted radio
You said I was all you’d ever need
Love is blind and little did I know
You were just another dead end road
They were pretty lies and broken dreams
Baby leaving you is easier than being gone
I don’t know what I’ll do if one more thing goes wrong
I’d sure hate to break down here
There’s nothing up ahead or in the rear view mirror
Out in the middle of nowhere knowin
I’m in trouble if these wheels stop rollin’
So God help me keep me moving somehow
Don’t let me start wishing I was with him now
I made it this far without crying a single tear
I’d sure hate to break down here
I’d sure hate to break down here
There’s nothing up ahead or in the rear view mirror
Out in the middle of nowhere knowin
I’m in trouble if these wheels stop rollin’
So God help me keep me moving somehow
Don’t let me start wishing I was with him now
I made it this far without crying a single tear
I’d sure hate to break down
It’s too late to turn around
I’d sure hate to break down here
Mile marker 215
~Julie Roberts
suckers
05.17.04 (7:04 pm) [edit]Today me and my nine year old son went to the store to pick up a couple of things I lacked to finish supper...
We got ears of corn, shells and cheese, and a pepsi...
When we checked out my son stood there looking blankly at the register lady... I urged him to come on because I had alot to do before supper was done..
On exiting the store my son starts yelling..
"I see how it is... when it's just me... NO SUCKERS!! But when Noah is with us we get suckers!!"
"Noah is only 3" I laugh back at him.
"I'm nine years old Mama... I like suckers too you know!!"
Only nine years old and already notices there is favoritism in the world.
Sleep
05.16.04 (1:05 pm) [edit]People who don't get enough sleep may lack energy, be depressed or irritable, have trouble remembering everyday things, and get sick more often than people who get enough sleep. They seem to age faster and they may have problems concentrating at work or school. Some scientists believe a lack of sleep may have a role in diabetes, high blood pressure, heart problems, and even obesity.
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Did you know that you can dig yourself into sleep debt pretty much like you can dig yourself into financial debt? Every hour you put off going to sleep is like racking up another $100 on your credit card. Sleep debt is like a monetary debt--it must be paid back sooner or later. The size of the sleep debt you have is directly related to the amount of lost sleep. Everyone has a specific daily sleep requirement to feel their best. For most people, that's about 8 hours. Some people need less, some need more. However, research has indicated that most people are kidding themselves about how little sleep they need--it's the very rare person who needs less than 7 hours of sleep. Whatever your ideal amount is, that is the amount of sleep that must be obtained each day to avoid becoming sleep deprived. If the needed amount is not obtained, the lost sleep accumulates into a larger and large sleep debt. http://iml.jou.ufl.edu/projec...
What would you do if you were told that you could look and feel younger as well as boost your energy level without spending a single cent or even having to leave home?
For most of us, the reply would be simple: What do I have to do?
The answer? Get some sleep.
It's no exaggeration that sleep's benefits can add volumes to the quality of your life. But sleep is often the first thing to go when we get overworked or overwrought and stay up just another hour or two or three to finish a project, do the ironing, read a report, scrub the bathroom floor . . .
"You can't cheat sleep without somehow cheating yourself," says Mark Mahowald, M.D., director of the Minnesota Regional Sleep Disorders Center at the Hennepin County Medical Center in Minneapolis. http://www.mothernature.com/L...
Those Who Sleep Only 5 Hours Have 39% More Heart Attacks Than Those Who Sleep 8
The ability of the brain to function following sleep deprivation appears to vary with the task at hand, and in some cases the brain attempts to compensate for the adverse effects caused by lack of sleep, according to a study published in the Feb. 10 issue of Nature.
Most people are born genetically capable of living their lives without serious pain and suffering caused by chronic degenerative diseases, IF they adopt a healthy lifestyle (which many do not). Without premature aging, normal life expectancy is estimated to be 120 years, but a very small percentage of people achieve this today, due to a great many non-genetic factors. Those who do live to 120. often have a simple, back-to-basics lifestyle with good nutrition, exercise and happy mental attitude.
For the first time, scientists are looking seriously at what happens to our bodies when we live on five, six or seven hours of sleep a night and what they're finding is shocking.
For the first time, scientists are looking seriously at what happens to our bodies when we live on five, six or seven hours of sleep a night and what they're finding is shocking. http://abcnews.go.com/section...
"If you're a nine or a nine and a half-hour need, and you're sleeping eight, you're developing a sleep debt," says Dinges. "There's no way to cheat Mother Nature." http://abcnews.go.com/section...
death dried and crusty
05.15.04 (8:07 pm) [edit]I remember the echoing sound...
Tap *tap*
Tap *tap*
Tap *tap*
The musty smell making me homesick,
Not that it reminds me,
But that it reminds me home is a much better place.
French Toast...
cinnamon, sugar, and egg..
a dead and decaying embryo of what could be a nice chicken sandwhich someday...
Slime...
Sticky egg yolk drying on my fingers,
The smell of death dried and crusty...
I see it in your eyes...
That oh so far away alternate reallity in which I once lived,,,
becomes a very real and current reallity in a spilt second...
Then gone again when you speak and break my trance.
How could you?
I struggle to remember,,,
I was just there and now I'm gone again...
Why I would want to be I'm not sure...
It's not exactly fond or comforting memories..
Sleep..
Amongst the seemingly dead moronic breathing echoing where the tapping once filled my ears..
Sleep..
Why does it avade me?
If I could only sleep the time would pass more quickly until the time I leave this dismal land..
Blue,,, yellow... and black..
Bringing me back...
Why had I forgotten for so long and in an instance be bombarded with these scents and visions...
almost as if it were this morning.. or as if it's happening now..
Tap *tap*
Tap *tap*
Tap *tap*
Running... footsteps at a heavy pace, yet light in sound...
death dried and crusty.. on my fingers... I smell the stinch
Taxes: Just a Thought
05.14.04 (4:24 pm) [edit]I dont know why I think on the things I do, but earlier today on the way to work I was thinking about tax evaders.... yeah... *shrugs shoulders*
Anyway,, maybe because I know a couple..
But for some reason people think that if they pay their taxes they are giving away money to the government...
Duuuhhhhh,,,
Of course you are..
But we live here, and it's been a way of our nation and other cultures before us to pay taxes in order for the society to grow and have the things it needs... such as schools and education...
Yeah sure, some of that money goes towards things we don't always agree with, and sometimes things that it probably shouldn't, and most often things that have nothing to do with us... but that's one of the negatives that you have to suffer with in order to reep the rewards of the positives.
Why would you,,, seeing your neighbors working hard and putting in their part to contribute toward society as a whole,,, selfishly hold back that little bit of your contribution?
You live here just like we do... you probably take advantage of many things that tax dollars go toward sometimes not even knowingly.. but you feel it's a robbery to be made to pay that small percentage to fund it?
To me, you are the robber...
In all responsibility as a citizen of whatever town you live in, in this country... you are robbing us,,, because when we put in our part to help our neighbors have insurance, to help our kids have education, to help our society grow... and you benefit from those tax funded programs, not helping as we have.. you are indeed robbing us...
Rain
05.13.04 (5:15 pm) [edit]It's raining today...
That comforting blanket covers me.
The hillsides seemingly dissappear in the magical mist,
Giving me the sensation of being far away from this place,
Perhaps in a place not even of this world.
That heavy drumming sound erases all other sounds from my mind,
Manipulating my senses,,, I'm free...
Looking out into the transparent veil,
I hear the steady beating, it's constant and rythmic,
and I have an overwhelming urge to run...
An almost uncontrollable impulse to be covered,,
completely in it's protection..
I can almost feel the rain upon my skin, dripping from my hair, soaked in my clothes,,,
and a contradicting feeling of being trapped possesses me..
Why must I be here instead of lost in the enchantment of this melody?
Mesmorized in this deafening trance, this is where I want to be at this moment...
But entirely,,, not restricted as I am right now...
Nothing else exists,,, but the sound of this bewitching music of mother nature,,,
calling me to come..
To dance in her grace, and dwell in her passion,
To let her comfort me in her soothing embrace....
I long for it,, I yearn for it,, I need it...
More than she knows, I wish to loose myself in her magic...
I need it...
quiz addict
05.12.04 (11:33 am) [edit] I am Chocolate Flavoured.I am sweet and a little bit naughty. I am one of the few clinically proven aphrodisiacs. Sometimes I can seem a little hard, but show warmth and I soon melt. What Flavour Are You? |
silentscreams
05.10.04 (9:45 am) [edit]Okay I'm going to leave the alter ego alone today.. I was like totally addicted yesterday and last night.. I could not get outta there... I was totally addicted.. I think I have like 50 links now over there cause I kept reading and couldnt stay out of tblog... I was freakin out!
I do that sometimes though.. just escape into other peoples blogs..
But then when I do, I have to link because I want to see what else happens with them.. and then I have so many that I have to take like one day and just check in on everyone.. so if you think I'm not paying attention.. I am.. I'm just not there everyday.. I take one day and visit everyone to catch up..
On another note...
Yesterday was mothers day... and I wanted to thank everyone for their mothers day wishes..
My kids... I love you...
My Mom...
Roger, Mark, and as specially a certain love of my life who showed up on my doorstep last night with 'pink' roses and a beautiful card... I love you Jonathan... you are so amazing...
Today is not anything special.. I'm gonna cleaaaannnn... as usuallll...
Go get groceries..
I think we're having hamburger steaks tonight...
Hopefully spend alot of time on the internet.. heheheh..
No for real...
I do have stuff around here to do.. I just don't want to do it..
But right now McD's is calling my name:
BIG MAC: *static* Angie, are you there? *static*
I thought you wanted me today?
ME: *static* Ummm, I'm here,,, *static* Is Crispy Chicken Combo There? *static*
BIG MAC: *static* What the fuuuuuu*static* So what is it? My special sauce isn't enough for you now? Huh!!!? *static*
*clicking*
*pause*
*background noises*
I knew you were a backstabber you fucking fried chicken piece of meat you!!!! *muffled screams*
CRIPSY CHICKEN COMBO: *static* Angie, *heavy breaths* You better hurry if you want this white meat on a bun... Big Mac is freaking out! *static*
ME: *static* Hold on to your tomato, I'll be right there...*static*
and Crispy Chicken Combo... grab the fries, I'm on my way.*static*
hmmmmm
05.09.04 (12:52 pm) [edit]
Aphrodite/Eros
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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My Name
05.08.04 (10:41 pm) [edit]When you look at me do you see me?
And if you see me, are you looking at me?
She's somewhere there in the back of you mind I think...
Subconcious sabatoging my love...
And I understand her being there...
But what about when it interfers with my love?
How am I supposed to have love with you if she's going to be in the middle?
Once I understand,,, but when it happens twice that you confuse my name for hers
Then I must wonder why?
And I must wonder why is she so much in your mind that I'm called her twice in as many days...
And then there was once that you almost called me by anothers...
So how is that I am that important if I'm constantly somehow a reminder of someone else...
Maybe that's the wrong thing to say and maybe it wasn't...
How is that I'm so important if there is still someone so very much in your mind that you utter there names in moments between the two of us...
I can't be that significant I think,,,,
Perhaps I'm a rebound...
But I do know one thing...
My name is Angie... and I love you....
And I hope that I haunt your memory as much as others do... but I'm not enough to fill it now, so how could I be enough to fill it later?
You asked me if I were sure that you were the one that I wanted to be with...
Are you sure you weren't asking that question to yourself?
What the Fuuuuuu???
05.08.04 (9:06 pm) [edit]I just wanted to say that... :lol:
Anyway,,,
Van Hellsing was the shiznit...
Really COOL movie... definately gonna buy...
My favorite character..
Frankensteins Monster,,, I've always been a Frankenstein movie fan anyway and although the movie was primarily about Vampires (my FAV) and Werewolves,,, (second FAV) he was indeed my favorite character in this story... my second favorite would be of course Van Hellsing and then Dracula..
No matter how Negative Hollywood tries to portray the Vampire, they cannot take away from the immortal darkness that leads us to love them so....
My favorite part....
Hmmm toughy... my first favorite would be when Dracula and Anne are dancing and he's trying to convince her to become his new bride and she is falling into his trance when Van Hellsing swings into retrieve her...
my second favorite would be when Van Hellsing is starting to portray werewolfe signs and Frankensteins monster is being boated away. Hellsing, the Fryre, and Anne are trapped in the water watching as their captured friend rows away and Hellsing is yelling promises of rescuing him... starting to exhibit aggressive animal like behavior...
the scariest part to me would be in the beginning when the werewolfe is after Anne's brother and they are trying to capture and kill it and it gets away and is chasing them,,,
Okay so I guess I have went on on on enough about the darn thing.. you gotta go see it...
re: intenerary
05.08.04 (3:21 pm) [edit]Well needless to say things yesterday went nothing according to what I wrote that I planned to do...
this is the way it went for me:
I didn't have to go to cookeville because my boss went.
But he left me a room full of samples and displays to set up so that kept me busy all day anyway.
I did go to lebanon to pay the bill.
I did take Noah to Mom's.
I wound up at the office for a bit that I didn't plan on.
I went to a clients house to drop of samples and speak with them about their estimate.
I returned home, got ready to go watch Van Hellsing and didn't get to go.
I did go to pick Jason up at the bus station.
Some things went according to plan but I still got side tracked or misplaced as usual. It never fails thats why I shouldnt plan anything.
Ok so I'm getting ready yet again to go watch Van Hellsing. I really want to see it, but now today I'm very tired and I really don't feel like the drive. We don't have a theatre here and we have to go at least 30 min away to the nearest theatre. And I don't like to drive that much anyways. But I guess if I'm gonna go see it that's the only way I'm going.. it's not like Paramount is going to set up a projector in my backyard any time soon and set up a speaker to fit on the side of my door. So I guess I'm gonna have to get off my lazy ass and get ready. I will let you know what I think of the movie later tonight or tomorrow.
Have a good one..
intenerary
05.07.04 (5:38 am) [edit]Ok... lets see... it's early and I'm up to head off to cookeville yet again for the fourth time this week to deal with this apartment contract. Today the job will finally be done and I will get my commission check... hopefully... I know I have really earned this check. But I'm not sure if I will look for any new apartment complexes as new clients in the near future... I think I'm going to just let it ride for a while.
I really dread this freaking ride...
This weekend would be a great weekend to dissapear.. after tonight anyway.. but then I have to be back by sunday because it's mothers day.. so I guess Saturday will be a good day dissapear.. I guess you have to take what you can get huh?
Last night Kristie said she wanted us to go out somewhere tonight...
I already got plans to go somewhere and Jason is coming in tonight and I plan to pick him up as well..
My itenerary for the day...
Go take the keys for the last unit to finish to the office for Roger and Travis to finish up today.
Drop off the tools I took from the job yesterday because they were left behind.
Go to lebanon to pay my phone bill because I put it off for two weeks.
Go back to cookeville to tie up any loose ends and pick up the check for the job.
Go back to the office and hopefully get my commission check for the job.
Come home and clean up the house and get ready for the weekend.
Take Noah to moms.
Go see Van Hellsing with Jonathan and hang out and wait for Jason's bus to come in so that we can pick him up.
Hang out with Jason and Jonathan the rest of the night.
Let's see how screwed up my plans get during the course of the day... lol
blah blah blah
05.06.04 (10:13 pm) [edit]Have you ever been so happy that you thought something must be wrong? So happy that you keep looking over your shoulder waiting for that slap from reallity to show you that things aren't as perfect as you imagine they are?
I am happy...
sure there are nitpicky things that I could mull over, but in all I am happy... the little things aren't even that much to worry over.
But I wonder if I deserve it?
Sure I deserve to be happy... but do I deserve what I have?
What if something out there would be better for the people I love.. what if in my heart, I know that I am not the best thing for them? Maybe it's out of selfishness that I allow them to stay close to me... because they make me happy.. when if I were truly thinking about them.. I would let them find something they deserve... but I know what they bring to my life so I can't let them go... even though I know it's the best thing for them.
Do you do that?
Have you?
Is that what I'm doing? I ask myself that.. often...
I know that even though someone may be the best thing for 'me' that I may not be the best thing for 'them'.
and I feel that it is selfish of me to turn my head to that thought and deny it, just so that I can be happy.
I've already lived out the most difficult part of my life I think.. I've sewed my wild oats... had my kids... accumulated enough emotional baggage for two lifetimes... saw the worst and best parts of myself,,, faced my demons,,, made my mistakes,,, let go of my regrets,,, went through all of the confused 'finding myself' states that could be thought of... and now I am at rest,,, now I am at that point in my life that I am ready to just chill... enjoy the simple things,,, take time out, laze around doing nothing, take country rides, and watch my favorite movies over and over until I've memorized every detail... couch cuddle, fish, do... nothing..
Everyone seems to be moving around me, and I feel like I am standing in the middle of a busy intersection hoping no one hits me. I've had this overwhelming urge to just run away from everyone and hide for a couple of weeks now. The entire world is moving without me.. I want to just reach out and hold onto something and stop the spinning for just a little while but it's hopeless... and it seems I keep getting bumped and pushed. Without the slightest acknowledgement of contact I keep getting busseled around to places I don't want to be, doing things I don't want to do.. kinda mechanical I guess... it seems.. I'm seeing everything robotically speedily moving around me and the systematic line surrounds me and Im forced to move with it reluctantly. I just want to jump out of this hustle and hide...
blah blah blah,, here I ramble on about things you could give a shit about... the only time this blog seems to be interesting is when I'm angry.. except to lastpoetickiss.. thanks for the support in all of my moods..
Current Songs:
It Only Hurts When I'm Breathing
Hope life's been good to you
since you've been gone
I'm doin' fine now--I've finally moved on
It's not so bad--I'm not that sad
I'm not surprised just how well I survived
I'm over the worst, and I feel so alive
I can't complain--I'm free again
[Chorus:]
And it only hurts when I'm breathing
My heart only breaks when it's beating
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming
So, I hold my breath--to forget
Don't think I'm lyin' 'round cryin' at night
There's no need to worry, I'm really all right
I've never looked back--as a matter of fact
[Repeat Chorus]
It only hurts when I breathe
Mmm, no, I've never looked back--
as a matter fact
[Repeat Chorus]
Hurts when I'm breathing
Breaks when it's beating
Die when I'm dreaming
It only hurts when I breathe
heartless
05.05.04 (5:47 pm) [edit]I can't believe the person I used to be.
I knew that I had changed but today for some reason it's really bugging me about my past.
I'm not sure what exactly happened but somewhere around three years ago... I grew up... and made some radical discoveries about myself. But even though I had changed, the person I was with kept throwing up my past in my face and accusing me of being the same old person.
Go figure.. you can't win for loosing huh? Kinda makes you wonder if you should have been so honest about who you were... *sarcasm... I don't mean that*
Anyway... I guess that what I am gettting to is that I looked at it today from hindsight (is that the word?) and I thought about it alot... does it really matter if anyone notices or recognizes my differences or my changes... does it matter if they 'know' me??? Hell yeah it does... but then again it doesn't...
hmmm,,, how can I contridict myself there?
It's easy...
If someone isn't going to take the time to get to know the person that I am and the person that I was... and accept both of those people.. how are they going to accept the changes I may go through in the future?
So it matters in a sense that if I am going to have people who are close to me or people I am close to.. then we need to accept one another on all levels and in our past, present, and future states. But it doesn't matter in that if they are not going to 'know me' or I 'know them' then it's not going to be real and it's not worth the effort so it doesn't matter if they accept me or not.
Okay so I may be embarrassed to show you drunken videos of girls night outs and my rude behavior to other people.. but I will gladly tell you about it...
Just don't think that I am still that way because I'm not...
One of the qualities I love about you is that you love me for me.. no matter what I have come from or what I am headed to... this is another one of the things that make you so beautiful... one of the many many qualities about you that is so different from others... how can you look at me as if I am so beautiful knowing that at one time I was this horrible heartless person... how can you see that in which I am and others have not? I tell you why... you have a heart... you have compassion, you have understanding, you have love... you must have love to give love and you do so much. And you accept my love that I give you... unconditionally... not many people would have looked at me with such loving eyes as you did today after pitching that fit over the radio last night...
not many people would look at me the same knowing some of the things that I have done in my past... but you do... and you wonder why I love you... but I can never tell you fully because I find something in you everyday that makes me love you even more. You do not make me 'me'.. you do not allow me to be myself, you do not complete me... you accept me.. and I accept you.. for who you are now and who you will be... do you understand this? I allow myself because of your acceptance... it just comes naturally... Am I typing what I am feeling so that you may understand it, I hope I am not using the wrong words.
Maybe I shouldn't have put this here... but I felt like saying it and I felt like writing it... so here it is...
and just as I told you from the beginning of this journey.. that I saw myself in you.. and I still do.. by this I mean that I discover and see things about myself through you. I am always filled with revelations that for some reason open up to me I can't help but know that you have a big part in my opening up these doors..
And I love you..
I truly do...
Seasons Change
05.04.04 (5:28 am) [edit]Mother fuck!!!
I had a really long poem written here and I fuckin accidentally highlighted all and delelted the damn thing with this fucking laptop mouse!
Son of A !!!!!!
Now I don' feel like freakin writting..
I worked on that damn thing for 45 min now..
Mother Fuck!!!
My Mom
05.02.04 (9:12 pm) [edit]Today was my mom's 51st birthday. She called me this morning bright and early to invite me to church (she knew I wouldnt say no on her birthday) which I love church I just don't like to go to that particular church, I go elsewhere.
But I got up and went to her church since it was her birthday wish.
Then after church me and my sister in law took her out to eat at the local chinese restaurant.
Probably not her ideal birthday but I hope she knew that I did think of her and want her to know that I appreciate her.
My aunt gave her a picture, framed, of me and my brother and our cousin when we were very small.. I think I was maybe 3. And she said she wouldnt take anything in the world for it. She sat there at the table looking at it before we ate...
I dread the day when I look at pictures of my children, wishing I was back there with them when they were small.. they grow up so fast... I see it everyday..
Fun
05.01.04 (4:06 pm) [edit]Current Mood: Playful
Pretty good day today.
Me and Kristie took the kids to the park in Lebanon after pigging out at pizza hut...
I took some pictures for ya.. here they are
Me
Me
Matthew
Oogie
Kelsey, Matthew, and Brandon
Brandon and Matthew
Matthew
Brandon
Kelsey
Kristie
Kristie doing pullups
Me can't reach the thingies to do pullups
Brandon
Kristie
Me and Kristie mocking faces
Me
Me
Oogie
Oogie
Brandon
Kristie and Kelsey
Me and Ron
I saw my friend Ron, from where I used to work at Flex.. that was a great surprise.. I really miss it there.
Jonathan is at the Renaisance Festival.. I wish I was there.. I'm not sure what I'm going to do tonight.. I might go fishing or something to just chill out.
Not much to talk about today but I got alot of pics for you.
P.S. I heard you rev up your engine in front of my house today you jerkoff... stay away from me!